since i last wrote. and like now im totally apathetic about most things. especially the relationship aspect. But im glad now. because i know the next person i date will be the one i marry. talking about marriage is weird. especially oo today is valentines day yeah it's weird talking about marriage wwhen you're single on valentines day. lol but i know because many people have told me the next one will be the one. im glad. im happy for a couple too. no matter how much i hate/disapprove them, im really glad they're together because it's not me like im not in the relationship. i was the problem in the relationship and i know and i need to change that. soo many thing have i done wrong. And right now no matter how much i want a relationship, im glad im not in one. i dont think i will be in one for the next 2-3 years because i lose sight of where im going. and im too immature to be in one. i will be in a relationship when im a man. A man of God.
Relationships aside. Today im super happy. I found out that one of my roommates will be evicted on the first of march! thats something to be celebrated! i sound mean but for some context, he's been constantly harassing the house not in a sexual way but like the way we live. he's always a drunk. he steals food from us all the time. Borrows money and not pays back. Take booze without asking and not telling after until he is asked. super aggressive when he's drunk (which is always like i said a bit before) and life would be much better without him.
Life is like a branch on a vine; If the branch is connected well and completely, the branch will gain nutrients from the vine and will continue living. The purpose of the branch is to bear fruit. If the branch does not bear fruit then there is something wrong with the branch, whether if it is infected with something bad or if it is in a bad environment, well there's many different ways for a branch to not grow fruit. So the branch needs to either cut off that infected part or place it in a better environment, whatever is needed for it to grow fruit. If the branch still does not produce fruit, it is a waste of space and nutrients that the gardener will just cut it out and burn it.
